Don't forget, don't regret, I'm always here;

Don't You Remember, Adele

picture taken with my iPhone.

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It's been awhile since i've last posted anything on this long forsaken blog. I miss the feeling of typing out what i'm feeling onto this small little window and sorta relieve and express myself, without any judgement being made. Also, by verbalizing all my feelings, i think i sorta get to know myself better? In terms of, managing those feelings, because knowing the cause of the problem, i would be able to determine the solution.

I suppose, i've been fine these few days, during the holidays, it was just basically, enjoying life as it is in Korea, where all we did was chill, dance, drink, hang. Nothing too hard to explain nor too easy to decipher. During the 11days trip to Korea also made me realize what it is that i was feeling. I mean, the reason to why i was feeling that way. It made me realize, it's okay.

Being happy with your life isn't determined by the number of friends you have, or the amount of times you shagged, neither is it based on how rich you are, etc. I realize, it all comes down to, how satisfied you are, i mean, how you could make the best outta everything in your life, being content that they are there. Being gracious of the food you eat, being kind towards the people you meet, and most of all, loving the ones whom love you too.

No doubt, i still miss the life i had, but there's seriously nothing i can do about it anymore. I wanna thank the people who left me, the people who hurt me, the people who loved me. They are the ones who shaped me, they made me who i am today, for that, i'm fortunate. Without those miserably depressing times, i wouldn't cherish what i have so much right now. Without those heartbreaking moments, i wouldn't know how happy i could be. Without those tormenting moments, i wouldn't work so hard to right the wrongs in myself.

I don't wish to be always right in whatever i decide, because sometimes the wrongs in my choices make me discover and learn about myself so much more. So basically, what i'm trying to say is, fuck all the things that you think screws you up, fuck all the people who looks down on you.

BUT, never fuck your life.