Intimacy VS Isolation ;

picture taken with my iphone.

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This is technically my 300th post. Each time i notice how fast the days are passing, and how fast we're all growing, scares the crap outta me. Nonetheless, i suppose all of us learnt to face it, either the hard or easy way.

I don't really know what i've been going through lately, i mean, i don't understand why i was feeling what i was feeling; don't understand why i was doing what i was doing; don't understand why i was saying what i was saying. Being intoxicated or not, makes me think about life as it is. Whether it being good or bad, life tends to unfold as we grow older. We get to see how people change over time, and also how some of the things in life that seem to stay the same.

The recent days have been rather bad for me lately. Going through what in mind, they call "Actualizing" ain't easy at all. Facing facts and facing the world, makes me reflect and think about why i'm here, standing. What was my purpose in life, and what shaped me. Yes, i suppose experience makes you a better person, because we tend to learn from our past experience. All of us tries to improve ourselves to make people around us feel better, and also to make ourselves feel better.

We always talk about how much we feel for ourselves, when actually, we spend most of our time thinking about what others feel about us. What we think of how we are, depends on how we perceive on how other perceive us. Views from a different perspective; views from a different opinion; views from a different person, molds our self identity.

Also, i wanna thank one of my dearest friend from my class, Rachael. For staying by my side and cheering me on. Besides being a wonderful confidante and an amazing friend, she looks out for me. Well, i don't think i need lotsa friends, actually i don't think we all do, what matters most is that particular moment when you need someone to be there for you, you know who to look for. For me, it's Rachael. For that i thank her for being there for me at my lowest. Thanks Rach.

Ultimately, what i'm trying to say here is that, i suppose i should stop thinking and actually start doing. Start feeling better and start moving forward for a better future. Stop feeling and start going. Life just keeps going on, no matter how hard you may try to stop it, it'll pass you by relentless without turning back. So, i hope i'll get by, for time awaits no man.

Stop dwelling and start living.